it's a dog!

a few months ago my cousin brought home with her a cute little shi tzu.... watching her with the small dog i wanted one for myself but i'm not really the type that's successful in saving money. so i did what most people without money would do. i begged my mom to buy me one.... yes, i'm pathetic but i take pride in the fact that i'm still dependent on my parents at the age of 22... anyways, every week since then i've told my mom about the joys a new dog would bring. you see, we already have one dog, Goku, but he's a german shepherd. not really the type you want to cuddle and pamper. Week after week without fail i would tell her about how i wanted a shi tzu, but she'd always say that it would be a hassle to take care of another pet. Mind you, i was sure she'd never buy me one since she vehemently said no to me on numerous occasions. so imagine my surprise when three days ago my brother calls me up and says "ate may bagong aso, ano gusto mo ipangalan?", my heart skipped a beat and asked "may shi tzu na tayo?", i suppressed a scream when he said yes... finally a cute little dog!

we decided that his name would be rafa, after rafael nadal. i hurriedly went home and even willingly rode a bus just to see him....and right now... he's just the cutest thing in the world to me....

i've always wondered, what it was like to be truly happy.

if you think this is a blog about finding happiness, STOP. it's not about the secret to being happy.
if, however, you wish to listen- or read rather- to my worthless ramblings, then do read on.

i live a relatively normal life.
my parents provide for my daily needs, they give me things that i ask for. basically, i should be happy about everything.

But then, why is it that i can't recall ever smiling and laughing truly?

what is it that is missing? why is it that i'm unhappy?

of course i know the answer to that. it's because, no matter how much money i have, how many things i get the one thing i want, it seems i can't get. no matter how long and hard i pray, it just won't come true.

i see it clearly, the cracks that they try to cover so desperately.i sometimes wonder how long it'll last. this game of charades, that has gotten old. when will all of it be over?

a happiness that would fill this void in my heart, seems impossible for me to grasp.

it may seem like an overly melodramatic blog. with no concrete description, but this is part of my disorganized ramblings i suppose.

time for myself is when?

everytime i come to school nowadays the air is full of buzz and energy... everyone having their own group meeting, ah yes it's toxic season at last...

a rundown of our hectic schedule is much needed for other people to relate...
feb 23... physio lab pracs
feb 26 ... anatomy cpc (hays... i pray our group will not present)
march 2... physio role playing
march 3 biochem research presentation
march 8... start of 6th long
march 15... start of finals week...

toxic is an understatement for this...
but even if that is the case... it's still ok... we just need to give it our best and hopefully God will do the rest.!!!
2013B let's all work hard for the remaining 4 weeks!!!
aja!!!