hole in my heart!

i am on the brink of tears. and i don't know why.

i feel cranky, and angry and frustrated. and somehow i just want everything to stop. to drop everything and just take a deep breath. to not think of anything, walk slowly and leisurely. i hate this feeling of unhappiness and i don't know why i'm even feeling this way... just that i feel like there's a big hole in my heart and i know that no one can fill it in... because i am having probably separation anxieties..

when i was with my college friends, i have never had this feeling before. and i don't know how to deal with all of this... i am overwhelmed. i am being mean to people who are close to me and i just don't like it... i want my friends to be with me!